dearly beloved are you listening?

Thu, 16 Jun 2005 20:26:20 GMT

since kindra did this and its way cooler than most surveys and kinda different... i just havee to do it too!

A - Age of first love? 4- with robin hood the fox and kermit the frog <3 love them animals B - Band listening to right now?audioslave C -Dream car? hm i dont really have one... prolly some sort of mercedes slk thing D - Daddy's name? neil neil the banana peel hahahaha E -Easiest person to make laugh? stef- brainwaves mannn brainwaves F - Foodyou miss most? eh hmm prolly the 75cent shawarmas that i ate all the time in oman G- Any encounters with ghosts? hhah noo H- Person most hated at the moment? HAHAHAHA well i just had a 2 HOUR rant bout this person but yeah cant really say it online I - Interesting unknown fact about yourself? oh jeez im not that interesting... well when i was in kindergarten in japan i had major diarrhea and really long hair. somehow i couldnt hold it and crapped my pants and SOMEHOW got in my hair. my kind teacher helped wash it out haha wow what a confession J-The first letter of the last person who broke your heart? i dont want them to have the satisfaction of knowing that they broke my heart (what does this have to do with the letter j?) K - Kissing with eyes opened or closed? closed L - Last time you did Illegal Drugs? uh last week? M- Most memorable moment you can think of in a minute? when martha got out a mini toy toilet and put it in my backyard so we could pee in it instead of going all the way in the house to pee N - Nicknames? amie,amethaine O- What's the most valued possession?eh prolly my car and my gecko collection (what does this have to do with o?) P - Poison of choice?homemade smoothies (either strawberry/mango/cantelope/orange or blueberry/peach) Q - The last quote you heard: haha i have no idea ireally dont keep track of these things R- What are you allergic to? bee stings and american cheese (lliek the nasty stuff on elementary school pizza- makes my lips swell up and burn ) -doesnt have to do with r either S - Song you sang last? my chemical romance- helena (cuz of courts myspace) T- Time you woke up? 10:00 CUZ ALEX CALLED OR ELSE I WOULD HAVE SLEPT WAYY LONGER. haha no jk thanks for waking me up or else i wouldve slept thru my alarm U - Fav. pair of underwear? my really old 7th grade underwear that are so thin and stretched out they feel like im not wearin any... so comfy V - Vegetable you hate most? zucchini or eggplant- barf W - What are you the most afraid of? failing college X -X-rated love life? oh baby Y - Year you were born? 1987 Z - Zodiac sign? gemini

Thu, 16 Jun 2005 02:37:09 GMT

yo, we're doneeeeeeeeeeee

congrats everyone

dysfunctional family^ on the last day :)

and my absolute fave threesome

peace

<3 amie

Tue, 31 May 2005 23:57:15 GMT

well well wellll....... mays basically over. this month went by too too too fast. like my previous entries im scared shitless of college and what lies ahead. i reallly wish i could turnnn back time to the start of this semester (noo not first semester with hon calc and ap phys= death) but this easy semester. its been gooooood times the whole way through. ive done a lot of stupid things especially toward people that i wish i could change and dont have the balls to just walk up and say hey im sorry lets forget it happened... good for me. eh well. lots of disappointment and regret along with good times with many to follow. i basically havae 3.5 more months here which is actually a lot to spend time with everyone before i move but itll be different without school forcing us all to socialize. then theres those aquaintences who i just say hi to as i walk by that i never really hang out with buttt i still will miss. but going back to what i was previously talking about... the negative things that havae happened will always overshadow the positive. there were good times with silverton, dance parties, sex and the city nights, ashland, beanery club hoppin, prom* etc. but my fuckups with friends, guys, family, substances and REGRET just still stand out. goddamnit. at least ive kept my grades up which is swell. im going back to my terrible old habits of freshman/soph year... basically only stef knows bout these but i guess theyre not that terrible... only teachers want us to think so. well whatever helps ease the anxiety is a good thing? haha many would disagree. i just want to write out everything i want to say to everyone righ there on lj but that would be uberly dumb... oh well.
i dont want to go to college. at all.
and i will end with a couple very emo quotes that are significant of this time
"As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change,
Come whatever
We will still be, friends forever"
and
"i dont care if it hurts
i want to have control
i want a perfect body
i want a perfect soul
i want you to notice
when im not around
i wish i was special
youre so fucking special"

peace

Sat, 28 May 2005 19:06:51 GMT

1. First grade teacher's name: mrs. harris
2. Last person you kissed: ehh
3. Last word you said: uh i dont remember.... im home alone with no one to talk to
4. Last song you sang: take your mama out
5. Last person you hugged: mi madre
6. Last thing you laughed at: prolly something on hope and faith last night
8. What's in your CD player: scissor sisters
9. What socks are you wearing: none
10. What's under your bed: a rugby ball, a wheres waldo book, magazines and an album
12. Current taste: fruit (i just made afruit salad)
13. Current hair style: brown and long ish
14. Current clothes: hottness clothes... sweats and a shirt woot
15. Current Job: professional bum
16. Current longing: hah honestly to be with ____ immeeediatley <3
17. Current desktop picture: a collage of friends
18. Current worry: effin lit project... ugh
19. Current hate: social climbers
20. Story behind your username: eh when i lived in japan they added chan to the end of ever little girl's name so i was ame-chan which is like amiechan then my fave #'s 6 and 23 is the day i was born in may
21. Current favorite article of clothing: hah i dont know... a bra?
22. Favorite physical feature(s) of the opposite sex: face
23. Last CD that you bought: jack johnson, in between dreams
24. Favorite place to be: french riviera
25. Least favorite place: CANADA UGHHH
26. Time you wake up in the morning: 10:30
27. If you could play a new instrument, what would it be?: drums
29. Current favorite word/saying: immediately (jeez thats sure been passed around a shitload of people)
30. Favorite book: memoirs of a geisha
31. Favorite Movies: american history x
32. Favorite Songs: radiohead- creep, pete yorn- for nancy
34. One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: roxannneee
35. Favorite day: saturday
36. Where do you want to go: french riveria
37. What is your career going to be: oh jeez dont get me started
39. What kind of car will you have: a vw bus
41. A random lyric: ive got sunshinee on a cloudy dayyy
42. Eye Color: eh brown...
43. Hair Color: brown yet again
44. Righty or Lefty: righty
45. Zodiac Sign: gemini
46.Innie or Outtie: innie

DESCRIBE...
47. Your heritage: malay, chinese, canadian, swedish, scottish, irish, english
48. The shoes you wore today: havent put on any shoes yet
49. Your hair: gotten too lazy to do anything to it so its just long and wavy
50. Your weakness: a beautiful face
51. Your fears: snakes
53. Your most recent secret?: uh secret.... meanin not gonna tell
54. Your thoughts first waking up: i dont think
55. The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: nose/lips
56. Your bedtime: usually like 12
57. Your most missed companion: roxannee
58. Your perfect pizza: american dream with olives and artichoke hearts
59. Sweet and Chewy or Salty and Crunchy: eh i dont know
60. Single or group dates: prolly group mos tof the time cuz i get way too hella nervous on single
61. Dogs or Cats: cats
62. Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: neither
63. Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
64. Cappuccino or Drip: cappuccino

DO YOU...
65. Smoke: eh no not really
66. Curse: effin hell
67. Sing: eh wehn in the car and shower
68. Take a shower everyday: well... most of the time unless i get lazzzyy
69. Have a crush: yesss
71. Think you've been in love: nopee
72. Want to go to college: ehh not really
73. Want more than what you’ve got: eh no im quite content at the moment... cept maybe like a better body and looks and everything
75. Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: yes
76. Think you're attractive: well if i did i wouldn t be askin for a better bod etc
77. Think you’re a health freak: hah no
78. Get along with your parents: ehhh my mom
79. Play an instrument: pianoo
IN THE PAST 3 MONTHS:
80. drink: water... yes
81. Smoke: ehh yes
82. Done a drug:hah yes
83. Made Out: yes
84. Go on a date: nope
85. Eaten an entire box of Oreos: nope
86. Eaten sushi: yes
87. Been dumped: no
88. Made homemade cookies: yes
89. Been in love: eh no
90. Gone skinny dipping: silverton
91. Dyed your hair: yea
92. Stolen anything: nosereee

HAVE YOU EVER..
93. Had too much to drink: nope
94. Been caught cheating: nope
95. Been called a tease: nopeee
96. Gotten beaten up: eh by my bro?
97. Changed who you were to fit in? i wanted to but never quite worked... so now its just me
98. Cried at something beautiful: yes
99. Spent too much money on something you didn’t need: the story of my life
100. Cried when someone died: my gparents

pics and whatnot

Fri, 27 May 2005 06:20:52 GMT

sooo this is how my room looked after i got back from camping...

uhh sand angels... quite exciting.. whats in ash's bottle...?

groupie

good times mannn

wowww best birthday everrrr...

Mon, 23 May 2005 23:52:44 GMT

so much for the birthday blues...
thanks to my wonderful friends and fam... i had a unexpectedly GREAT birthday :)
so im just gonna gloat about how great they are just for a sec

well... saturday i got a car (THANK YOU FAM) i was aiming for a new toyota corolla... well ehh thats sure not what i got... :) much much better. first car to bring down to SAN DIEGO. haha im soo hella pumped and well i mean how could you NOT get super estatico gettin a NEW CAR

thenn sunday went to the coast. gracias to EVERYONE out there that was there for making it a grrrreattt time. being at the beach... sunset... quest for a effin lighter... too many hot dogs ohh man good times (too bad no jon and roeser). it was very fun

annnd todayyyy (actual bday) i come home... andnnnddnndnd go to my roooommmmm.... anndd ITS COVERED IN BALLOONS AND STREAMERS!!! i was like hoooley shhmooelley...and started tearing up i was so happy... thanks to alex and ben. its truely wonderful. it basically topped off these wonderful three days. i did not expect that and it just i dont know it was really sweet of them and thoughtful. tear... i could not ask for ANYTHING else. ill post pics later

so basically thank you everyone. i honestly havent had a memorable birtday since FIFTH GRADE. yeah. long ass time... and well thank you for making my 18th memorable and fab
love always
amie

its all turned out for the betterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Wed, 11 May 2005 05:46:13 GMT

this is how im feeling right about now

:)

Tue, 10 May 2005 04:18:36 GMT

i wish i could rewindddddd time....

back to the good old days

i miss it

so much

i want you for you... not because you have a voice like pavarotti or that you are such a hottie

Mon, 09 May 2005 00:57:55 GMT

today i am sick
this is a break from my bowing to the porcelain god

Three names you go by:
1. Amelia
2. Amie
3. Ame (pronounced ah-may by mother)

Three screen names you have:
1. amiechan666
2. stonedamethaine
3. ehh thats all

Three things you like about yourself:
1. i love my family
2. i accept things as God's will when they dont turn out
3. i can make stirfry out of anything

Three things you dislike about yourself:
1. i fall for people quickly
2. it takes me a long time to get over someone
3. i give up quickly

Three parts of your heritage:
1. malaysian
2. canadian
3. swedish

Three things that scare you:
1. flunkin outta colleg
2. snakes
3. having no one to go to for help

Three of your everyday essentials:
1. my shirt
2. my bra
3. my pants

Three things you are wearing right now:
1. oxford sweatshirt
2. rugby sweats
3. white tank

Three of your favorite bands/artists:
1. ehhh i dunno... brain fried at the moment
2.
3.

Three of your favorite songs at present:
1. comfortably numb- scissor sisters
2. amie!- damien rice
3. i'll never break your heart- bsb

Three new things you want to try in the next 12 months:
1. surviving college
2. accepting myself :)
3. loving

Three things you want in a relationship (love is a given):
1. trust
2. compassion
3. friendship

Two truths and a lie:
1. i hate this shit (i agree with kindra)
2.
3.

Three physical things about the opposite sex (or same) that appeal to you:
1. beautiful eyes
2. beautiful nose
3. beautiful lips

Three things you just can't do:
1. make friends with girls easily
2. drink alcoholic beverages
3. watch injections

Three of your favorite hobbies:
1. reading
2. making peyote style beaded necklaces
3. cooking

Three things you want to do really badly right now:
1. kill someone
2. cry
3. leave

Three careers you're considering:
1. bioengineer
2. dr
3. southern cal beach bum

Three places you want to go on vacation:
1. spain
2. indonesia
3. chile

Three kids names: for either a boy or girl:
1. maya
2. adrienne
3. dominic

Three things you want to do before you die:
1. love
2. live in malaysia
3. open a scuba shop

Three people who have to take this quiz now:
1. anybody who wants to
2.
3.

well that one was massively boring

college-y updatey

Fri, 06 May 2005 22:43:06 GMT

ok not that anyone really cares that much but im gonna give you my lowdown on my colleges
by now bascially everyone has chosen but me... tight
so there are the 3 choices that i have paid the deposit for... so basically they all think im coming but ill just have to belike ohhh i was just kidding... later

1.University of California San Diego
oh i love sandiego love it love it loveit. i mean its southern cal what more could i ask for? the sun the surf etc. this is where i wanted to go even before i even chose a major and once i chose it "prebioengineering-premed" i found out that ucsd has the second best biomedical engineering graduate school in the nation... big plus. annnndd due to my father's rigorous research of where all the bioengineering stuff is goin down like places to work.... san diego is excellentttt. so then... sounds perfect butt.. well ok theres a long ass story to this. so basically a while back i got REJECTED. i cried and cried and cried... i mean according to #'s like sats etc i should have gotten in (but then again 40,000 applied and 3,900 were accepted w/ only like 3% out of state). so i didnt know where to go. i wanted ucsd so bad. thenn after visiting ucd and ucsc (both i wasnt 100% happy with) i got AN ACCEPTANCE LETTER! i was like wtfff.. but i was sooo FLIPPIN happy. i thanked God for this because i mean how often does a rejected come followed with an acceptance? divine intervention there. anyway so its like go online blablabla to check al lthis stuff and it says it accepted me NOT for fall 2005 but for winter 2006!!! wtf. i mean like then i was like awesome im not smart enough for fall? meaning id have to go to osu for one qtr then move down? sucky sucky sucky. plus i dont like explainin this whole situation to friends its kind of i dunno shameful>? thenn we get a letter saying that they effed up and being put in winter wasnt due to academics at all blablabla. well thats a plus. THEN TODAY i got an email saying i was transferred to FALL 2005 oh thank god. haha so now im happy AND in muir college :) happiness. so bascially theres like a 85% chance im goin here. oh and one more con- bioengineering? hard core. am i gonnna flunk out completely? possibly

2. Barnard College- Columbia University
well. new york city baby. i love it love it love it. just a subway ride from just bout anywhere. everyones so flippin cool lookin and trendy adn ehm HOT! so barnard's all girls but its right across the street from columbia and i could if i wanted to take 100% of my classes there... woahh amie and ivy league... never thought of those 2 together. even though i wouldnt technically be goin there. plus i mean theyre so close that there's no lack of interaction with guys big plus. however from what i saw, barnard seemed to be a school with many very wealthy very motivated girls... ehhh scary but i suppose icould handle it. it has this small school appeal that theyll take care of me and i def will succeed if i go there... and wont let me fail. plus no hardcore engineering but instead biology.... but its soo effin far away. east coasters are def dif from west coasters. and crappy weather in ny... but way more prestigious..hm. oh and one MASSIVE crappy point.... NO MERIT SCHOLARSHIPS. not really gettin fin aid... and theyre like yeah we only do fin aid... oh well maybe 13% chance of goin there

3. Bryn Mawr College (near Philadelphia)
eh. well bryn mawr is like 11 miles outside of philly so i was like ok so its in a small town but close to big city- perfect. butttt i dont really like philly. its nice drivin in with huge buildings and whatnot but its got all these sketchy areas (or maybe not many at all but i had the bad luck of drivin thru them) and i dunno not to swell. then drivin into bryn mawr the first car dealership was a maserati and ferrari dealership.... followed by jaguar and imlike what the hell. well it is a verrrry affluent community. massive brick old lookin houses and imlike hollly shmoollleey... SO i go to the college which is kind of secluded yet within 15 mins of other colleges like haveford swarthmore villanova etc. so lots of students in area. it was very small and the girls were rather chunky and looked rather dyke-ish. kinda alternative lookin and im like eh. if i do decide to really pursue premed its got an 85% acceptance rate to med school (in comparison to ucsd's measley 52% but id be doin engineering there anway). didnt feel like i belonged there. close private school feeling... 2% chance of goin there

hah
so theres the lowdown
looks like ucsd tho...
peaceout

Fri, 06 May 2005 07:36:00 GMT

youre also being massively loserish
trying to look cool isnt working
i liked you the way you are
no need to change
half of amie sticker of approval taken away

hello... is there anybody in there? just nod if you can hear meeee

Thu, 05 May 2005 23:40:02 GMT

ugh=today
despite frequent rantings to my compadres to release some of these pent up feelings.... this week has sucked
real bad. i hope therell be a shift in feeling somewhat soon because i dont want to leave cv thinkin i wont miss anyone... cuz thats how i feel right about now. i dont mean this to be some oh no one loves me entry so that everyone will reply and be like thats not truee.. im just ugh not feelin the swellest due to blatant statments regarding the friendship that people feel toward me
people have been writin a lot of depressin entries lately... maybe its the up and down of the weather... ive effed up too many times. one second you the other its him then her than ugh. i cant believe its almost been a year since day 1 of oxford. i remember this time last year i was sendin in my application and whatnot... not knowing whta would follow in that month. even if i knew i dont think i could entirely encompass the enormity of the effect that it would have on me. sounds so cliche eh? go on exchange ish come back with a new view on life...
ouch i still cant get over that. i got really upset. if i say it hurt then yeah... it did. fuck this ill go do something productive
catchin up after missin one week is a bitch

Wed, 04 May 2005 22:05:36 GMT

i guess some are just not the way i thought
hurts
a lot
spaghetti gets on clothes
that isnt that bad for you
it wasnt that gross
his clothes made my car stink
madness
fallin back
i think so
settling
noway jose

and

i hate it when you analyze me
stop

Sun, 01 May 2005 23:41:19 GMT

i hope it rains
my car really needs a washing
she had a rock on her finger about the size of three coffee beans... glued together

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 22:59:51 GMT

everytime i leave you i wish i had more time to spend with you

and so it is just like you said it would be

Sat, 23 Apr 2005 06:33:42 GMT

several times already i have sat down to write a good ol lengthy entry...
then... nothing
like right now theres nothing to talk bout
either its stuff i did today that has no real relevance
or my feelings right now are so mild that i dont have the motivation to describe them
or theyre way to extreme about certain people that thatd not be a good idea to broadcast on lj
so
hm
basically
all im thinkin is about
what college
i have like one week to sign the rest of my life away
its a scary thought
i cant imagine any other time in my life when ill have this many opportunities at once
oh god
bear with me for a while here
i may seem strung out and freaked
sorry for being so stand offish this week
i apologize
i cant say i will stop being like this
but ill try harder to be diff
and not be close one day adn distant the other
i wish i lived in cali
like grew up there
i wish i never quit ballet
i wish i played piano more
i wish i documented more of my life in my journal
i wish i told my grandma that i loved her more
i wish i didnt waste my first weekn in oxford being depressed
i wish i didnt shaft my old friends when i moved back
i wish i stayed in contact with aba friends
i wish i spent more time with roxy
i wish i ate more veges
i wish i spent less money
i wish i appreciated oregon
i wish i never painted my nails
i wish i went fishing more
i wish i cared bout what i wanted instead of what others wanted more
i wish i could love myself inside and out
i wish i studied harder
i wish i made a copy of that uc application
i wish i wasnt so obsessed with food
i wish i could do the splits
i wish i never bruised my nose
i wish i wasnt so jealous
i wish i wasnt so jealous of even my friends
i wish i could just be content all the time
i wish i never started chewin coffee beans
i wish i told martha how much she was there for me
i wish i wasnt afraid of getting too close
i wish i could just say what was on my mind
i wish i didnt pick my scabs
i wish i wasnt such weak sauce when it comes to teary movies
i wish i wasnt so damn picky
i wish i had a close relationshp with my dad
i wish i could run really fast
i wish i had smaller hands and feet
i wish i had bigger eyes
i wish i didnt hope to get sick so my mom would pay attention
i wish i could sing really well
i wish i could get on stage and people would clap
this is really therapeutic
im gonna start doin this more often!!! woot!
haha peace

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 06:13:52 GMT

well i just have to comment
i had a swell convo with justin just now
brings back good memories of oxford
ahh
makes me happy
some day
i swear
we will
when i come down to la

peace!

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 02:27:21 GMT

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 23:04:11 GMT

life is fabulous
prom was excellent if i may say so myslef
weed was a lil strong and embarassed myself but good
happiness
love you all

california here we come...

Fri, 15 Apr 2005 17:36:58 GMT

heres some pond in uc davis

the ocean in santa cruz

i <3 cali

Fri, 15 Apr 2005 07:43:07 GMT

(x) been drunk
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed a friend's car
(x) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
( ) been in love
( ) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
( ) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight
(x) snuck out
( ) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
( ) ever dated someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back
( ) been arrested
(x) made out with a stranger
( ) stole something from your job
( ) celebrated New Years in Time Square
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new Orleans
(x) been to Europe
(x) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
(x) cut myself on purpose
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
(x) seen someone die
( ) been to Africa
(x) Slapped someone you love
( ) Driven over 400 miles to attend a show/festival
(x) Been to Canada
(x) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
(x) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire.
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been snowboarding/skiing
(x) Met someone in person from the internet
(x) Been moshing at a concert (fakish concert)
(x) had real feelings for someone you knew only online
( ) gone to college
( ) graduated college
( ) had sexual intercourse
(x) tried killing yourself
( ) taken painkillers
( ) intentionally burned oneself
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) went to a prom
( ) Bungee jumped
( ) have been to a pop concert
( ) have dated someone for a year or more.
( ) sold naked pictures of yourself
( ) been in a car accident
(x) Slept in the nude
(x) eaten cheesecake
( ) had jury duty
(x) hated someone without knowing them.
( ) been to Maine
( ) shot a real gun
( ) had sex with someone within a week of meeting them
(x) made out with someone within 5 days of meeting them
( ) done ecstasy
(x) gotten my ass kicked
(x) been caught smoking
(x) milked a cow
(x) got in a verbal fight
(x) cheated on someone
( ) lied one time in this survey
( ) Threw a party at a friends house when they were gone
( ) Done something w/ a friends bf/gf
( ) Done something with a bf/gf's sibling
( ) Committed a major crime
(x) Dated someone older than you are
( ) Gotten in trouble w/ the cops
(x) ran away
(x) Ever given someone a hicky
(x) Ever gotten a hicky
(x) Ever got super drunk
(x) Went skinny dipping
(x) Lied about where you're going
(x) Ever lied about your age
(x) Ever been pantsed
( ) Had mono
( ) Beer bonged
(x) Got into a physical fight w/ a parent

last kiss: omg tooo long ago... tearrrrr
last cigarette: hm. summer after 7th grade woahh long time
last good cry: oh jeez. today in the car from berkely to sacramento

last movie seen in a theatre: the ring 2
last cuss word uttered: hahah eh prolly fuck
last beverage drank: mocha
last food consumed: strawberries
last phone call: KENYON
last tv show watched: the oc
last shoes worn: flip flops
last cd played: damien rice
last item bought: uhh a uc berkeley sweatshirt for the madre
last thing downloaded: hah..... i have no idea i dont dl much
last annoyance: dude my mom bought these like native american drums and she liek drums them with my bro and they like howl together supposedly like the native americans do and its so effin loud and irritating
last disappointment: eh well seing davis's crappy campus.... and prolly being rejected from beautiful berkeley
last soda drank: oh jeez i dont even remember its been a while
last ice cream eaten: i had a cone of raspberry sorbet in santa cruz
last amused: eh prolly talkin to ash earlier
last time hugged: haha phil summers down in davis
last shirt worn: big old white shirt
last time dancing: god these are depressing... prolly at silverton... totally stoned... wasnt really dancing.. like weird movements

WHAT WERE YOU DOING...
1 MINUTE AGO: filling this out
1 HOUR AGO: puttin away clean dishes
1 DAY AGO: cryin in berkeley
1. What do you most like about your body? my ears are a decent size
2. And least? well basically everything else
3. How many fillings do you have? jeez i dunno
4. Do you think you're good looking? eh not usually
5. Do other people tell you that you're good looking? ditto

FIRSTS:
First job: dishwasher @ osu
First screen name: stonedamiechan
First funeral: grandma's
First pet: kola kola bear
First piercing: ears
First Kiss: eh adam something or other 6th grade
First Kiss that mattered: eric van thiel 7th grade
First love: tear... nada
First True Love: ditto
First Heartbreak: hmm i cant really say ive had heartbreak.. it was HELLA painful leaving eric even though it was 7th grade... took a hella long time to get over him...
First car: well the first kinda car that wasnt mine but i drove was a red 89 4runner
First Home: Corvallis
First Bike: mustve been some sort of plastic trike... wait that wouldnt exactly be a "bike" then... something pink i thinkg

Fri, 15 Apr 2005 04:46:17 GMT

[ full name ] Amelia Suhani Forsberg
[ spell your first name backwards ] ailema
[ birthday ] 5-23-87
[ sex ] Female
[ status ] single
[ where do you live?] corvallis, or
[ 4 words that describe you ] pessimistic, stressed, independent, creative
[ hair color ] brown
[ zodiac sign ] gemini
[ heritage ] ehh.. malaysian, chinese, canadian, swedish, scottish, english, irish

current...
[ location ] ehm corvallis?
[ clothes ] hottt plaid shorts and a big old tshirt
[ procrastination ] ehmm prolly all the hw i need to turn in considering i barely go to class...
[ listen ] most def damien rice
[ read ] angels and demons anndd as i lay dying
[ cd ] damien rice- O
[ refreshment ] homemade smoothies
[ worry ] 1) choosing a fucking college 2) p r o m

last person...
[ you touched ] my brother
[ you talked to ] alex
[ you hugged ] uhhhhhhhhh jeez actually this guy phil summers down in davis
[ you kissed ] oh god... well just cheek kiss ANNA
[ you missed ] my mommm cuz i was down in cali w/out her spending time with my miserable father

either / or
[ righty or lefty ] righty
[ innie or outtie ] most def innies
[ boxer or brief ] hahahahhah boxer
[ pepsi or coke] really dont care
[ McDonald’s or Burger King ] BK!
[ single or group dates ] GROUP! too afraid of awkward silences on single dates
[ adidas or nike ] prolly nike
[ lipton ice tea or nestea ] not a big tea fan
[ 7-11 or wawa ] 7-11, what the fuck is wawa? (taking nat's answer on this one)<i have to agree too [ cappuccino or coffee ] coffee what is your... [ most overused phrase] oh jeez how the hell should i know... "and"??? [ best feature ] hah i prefer the lil place area on the back of my left knee thats kinda roundish [ bedtime ] eh whenever the caffiene wears off [ greatest accomplishment ] unplugging a toilet... DISGUSTING but needed to be done [ most missed memory ] oxford favorite... [ food ] blueberries [ drink ] hmmm cranberry juice [ color ] turquoise [ shoes ] my old crappy mjs [ animal ] gecko [ movie ] american history x and zoolander [ vegetable ] this like asian vegetable kangkong mmmmmmm [ fruit ] ditto with the blueberries [ cartoon ] hm. prollyyy ed edd and eddy or courage teh cowardly dog- i dont even know if its still on but cracks me up every time [ article of clothing ] uhhh prolly sweatpants...i wish i could be a guy and wear baggy pants everyday and ppl wouldnt think im just pmsing are you generally... [ understanding ] uh i think so [ open-minded ] yes most def [ arrogant ] i tryyy not to be... [ insecure ] yep [ interesting ] yeah i agree with anna-- depends..... (whether im interested in the person or not) [ random ] haha yeah INDIA NIGHT 2005 [ smart ] not generally [ moody ] yesm [ childish ] yep- i have a 10 year old bro [ independent ] yes- see "4 words that describe you" [ hard working ] yep [ organized ] yep... things are kinda diff now with senioritis tho [ shy ] eh. wehn im feelin insecure yes [ difficult ] with my parents yes... its part of been a teenager [ attractive ] haha no not usually.. [ bored easily ] heck yes. especialy with people. if i totally shaft you for like 2 weeks then your my bff again... well ehh sorry? [ thirsty ] um if i just ate something salty, or choclatey [ responsible ] generally [ angry ] no not really [ sad ] goes up and down [ happy ] ditto [ hyper ] no not anymore... [ trusting ] haha i thought it said thrusting... ohhh yeahh... actually no im not very trusting who do you want to [ get real wasted with ] uh... PROLLY COURTNEY IF WE BOTH DRANK [ get high with ] yayy everyone!!! [ look like ] hahah of course angelina or adriana lima. yes would have sex with self [ talk to offline ] eh i dont know [ talk to online ] uh dont know either (now this is gettin boring and im getting too lazy to think) girls / guys [ favorite feature ] 1) nose 2) overall FACE (good lookingness) [ favorite eye color ] doesnt really matter.. i do have a tendency toward blue tho... [ best hair color ] not big fan of redheads [ best height ] prolly around 6' the taller the better [ best weight ]jeez i dunno... i dont really weigh the guys.... have you ever... [ kissed in the rain ] oh yes.... tear... back in the dayyyy [ called someone because you couldn't wait any longer to hear their voice ] haha yes i know this is sad but MY MOM wehn i was homesick in OXFORD [ thought about someone so much you annoyed yourself ] its called a crush [ talked about someone to the point of people telling you to shut up ] do yall remember JACOB!!! hahah omg jacob this last night jacob that omg jacobs abs oh we have to go stalk jacob oh i jogged past his hous omg i went into JACOBS house ahhh hahahahahhaha [ watched the stars with someone ] hmm i dont think so... sad eh? hopefully i will tho [ cried because you were so happy ] hm proly in movies where like something rediuclously good happens like the dying mom gets cured of cancer and all the chilluns go and hug her ... tear [ kept something so you could smell it when you missed that person] hahahahhaha yes... specially clothing. oh man. im a sucker for that. then eventually you cry and hug it so often that it starts smelling like you... that sucks [ eaten an entire box of oreos ] haha no not yet [ eaten sushi ] yesm [ been on stage ] oh god yes.... i hate it... [ gone skating ] ehm yeah fell on ass but tried again [ made homemade cookies ] yes. specially when depressed. makes me happy, and fat. happy and fat good combo [ been in love ] nope [ dyed your hair ] yep [ stolen anything ] cmon we all did it... specially in middle school. no need to lie [ played a game that required removal of clothing ] thats where i draw the line [ been caught "doing something" ] haha... 1:00am. waynflete... AMELIA FORSBERG ARE YOU IN THERE?!@ *rustle rustle oh shit rustle rustle* noo shes not in here... hahaha among other times [ been called a tease ] noway jose.... ;) sorry you guys [ gotten beaten up ] yep [ changed yourself to fit in ] jeez this is a deep question... too lazy to answer or come up with some clever response wow anna that was fabulous.... surveys rock my socks like none other

whyd you say hallelujah when it means nothing to ya.....

Sun, 10 Apr 2005 18:03:49 GMT

well i thought id write a really long in depth entry since i havent in a while. an update on life. cuz well whitestrips arent the extent of what happens in my life... last night i got back at 1, but then i couldnt sleep till it started getting light cuz i drank too much caffeine... then i fuckin got up at 930. whats the deal with that? i love my parents. they totally dont care anymore. like i thought i had a curfew but i dont. its tight. everyone was asleep when i got back and yeah i dunno it was tight. yesterday went to the guys rugby game... pretty excellent. rediculous how tight this one guys shorts are. you could even tell what side he puts it on... and there were these 3 girls with super straight highlighted hair. ugh. make me barf. standing watchin with their abercrombie jeans and college sweatshirts... i just get irritated with those kinds of girls quite a bit. went with ash to nearly normals for some good foods... vegetated there for a while. saw a big poster for india night..... then were like ohh lets show up at the india night thing and see if we can get tickets. and we did!!! woot. so we saw a whole lot of indians dancing and singin and ate indian food. (god im really not in the mood for writing) kinda messed up some peoples plans but oh well. saw meher and nikhil. i wanted to go to their indian after party... but there was the scandy fest... too many things happening in one night. so went to scandy fest. was pretty tight. hmm im trying to think of more stuff. shitloads have happend but i dunno i dont feel the need to express it on lj anymore. im really scared. im going to california tomorrow to visit davis, berkeley and santa cruz. its rediculously weird thinkin that i might be living there next year. ive spent my whole life with some sort of care. i spent 6 days without my parents recently and my god was i lonely. it was just the little things like cooking for just one person, not having someone home wehn i got back, no background voices at all. just kinda eerie. eh well.
so its not hard to fall when you float like a cannonball
damnit
this isnt very long
hmm
like half the things i want to talk bout i sure cant on lj. ugh.
people are pretty cool
im hella pumped for prom
haha i suppose im happy right now. i was bawling a week ago at this time
shit. i cant turn off the bold and italics. ugh stupid lj oh yeay i got the bold off k woah haha got it
i dont know if my dads gonna be here for my graduation. like it was tight having him gone so often for work. but i mean its my graduation. despite our differences i know he loves me but... i dont know... like he forgets the little things and ignores the big things. sometimes i wish he was there for me more. i try to talk to him but hes just not interested.
well now im depressed and just blabbering on
peaceout

Fri, 08 Apr 2005 04:26:37 GMT

its really hard to sneeze when you have whitestrips on your teeth

Tue, 05 Apr 2005 23:06:32 GMT

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Put a star by the things that are true about you.
3. Whatever you don't bold is false.

**01. I miss somebody right now.
02. I don't watch much TV these days
**03. I love olives
**04. I love sleeping
05. I own lots of books
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses
07. I love to play video games
**08. I've tried marijuana
**09. I've watched porn movies
10. I have been in a threesome
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship
**12. I believe honesty is USUALLY the best policy
**13. I have acne free skin
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton
**15. I curse frequently
**16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have a hobby
18. I've been told I: (women) have an applebottom, (men) am packing.
**19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me
20. I'm really, really smart

**21. I've never broken someone's bones
**22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
**23. I hate the rain
**24. I'm paranoid at times
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
26. I need money right now!
**27. I love Sushi
28. I talk really, really fast (at times)
29. I have fresh breath in the morning
**30. I have semi-long hair
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas.
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister
33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
**34. I shave my legs (females) or face (males) on a regular basis
35. I have a twin
**36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past
37. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
**38. I like the way that I look sometimes
**39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months

**40. I know how to cornrow (not well tho)
**41. I am usually pessimistic
**42. I have a lot of mood swings
43. I think prostitution should be legalized
**44. I think Britney Spears is hot
**45. I have cheated on a significant other in the past
**46. I have a hidden talent
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
48. I think that I'm popular
**49. I am currently single
**50. I have kissed someone of the same sex
**51. I enjoy talking on the phone
52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants
**53. I love to shop.
54. I would rather shop than eat

55. I would classify myself as ghetto
56. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders
57. I'm obsessed with my Xanga or DEADjournal
58. I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.
59. I'm a pretty good dancer
60. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother
**62. I have a cell phone
**63. I believe in God
64. I watch MTV on a daily basis
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
66. I love drama as in the acting kind
67. I have never been in a real relationship before
**68. I've rejected someone before
**69. I currently have a crush on someone
**70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
**71. I want to have children in the future
**72. I have changed a diaper before
73. I've called the cops on a friend before
74. I bite my nails
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club
76. I'm not allergic to anything

**77. I have a lot to learn
78. I have dated someone at least 5 years older or younger
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie
**80. I am very shy around the opposite sex sometimes
81. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message

82. I have at least 5 away messages saved
84. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past
85. I own the "South Park" movie
**86. I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or DEADjournal
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum
88. I enjoy some country music
89. I would die for my best friends
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can
92. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist
**93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story"
**96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it
98. I have dated a close friend's ex
99. I'm happy as of this moment